Hi. My name is Stella.
I was over 40 years old when I woke up. I had been sleep-walking through my life. I may as well have been in a coma. I had spent almost 30 years being a human doing instead of a human being. I was addicted to being busy in life doing things that weren’t my life. And what was my life? And who was I?
STOP. First thing, I stopped and sat myself down. I made myself be perfectly still and present. This was hard. I knew I had to stop and start over, but I wasn’t sure how. So I decided to take a look around and take a look inside. What I saw frightened me and made the coma look appealing. But I was boxed in and fortunately, determined too. My first look was at society (because it was easier than looking at myself). Victims and liars. Everything was someone else’s fault and a lot of people had their hands out waiting for someone else to put something in them because they “owed” it to them. Losers. People were suing people over anything with high hopes of getting some free money and not having a single thought or care about the stress it caused the other party or the prices going up for the rest of us if it was a company.
Self-help was a joke. For starters, look who was reading it. Hello. Insight junkies running amuck with no action thus no results. Just a puff to their ego for sounding as if they had some wisdom. And that was another eye-opener, almost everyone seemed to be living their lives thinking about what other people were thinking about them. And, unless it was a juicy piece of gossip, no one was thinking or talking about them. Crazy. Lesson–if someone is talking about someone else they’re talking about you too. Hello. It also seemed that most married couples were living a lie or had accepted the fact that it was for convenience and cheaper to have a roommate. Sad. Never, ever settle.
Remember the part where I made myself sit still? I felt this vibration that increased as I relaxed and I craved that. I tried to make my mind go blank. I craved that too. So, I started meditating. I felt okay buying meditation CD’s instead of self-help books. Action. After only a week of meditating for about 30 minutes a day, my mind started getting in shape. I started listening. What I heard came from the spiritual world and from inside myself. Strange, but good. Then one day it hit me. Hard. So hard my eyes bulged and my mouth gaped open. HONESTY. Simple, but difficult. Real honesty. Courage to deal with my smallness. Re-wiring MY victimness. Owning MY garbage. Honesty. What an abused, overused word, honestly.
My first reaction was to get busy…doing nothing. STOP. I already did that for almost 50 years. I rarely sat on my own sofa (or anyone else’s). My way didn’t work. I needed a way that did. So I went on a hike with my dog. I started thinking about what I was thinking about. I realized how much I judged people. Reality–there wasn’t anything anyone else had ever done that I hadn’t done or thought of doing to a greater or lesser degree. I owned it. Humility. Exhale. Peace. Hope.
Reality. I had a rough childhood. Who didn’t? When I learned (again through meditation) that everything was a gift if I unwrapped it right, my thinking shifted. But, it didn’t change. That happened later when I realized the only way to do that was to crowd out old ideas with new ideas. I had to consciously focus to keep my mind from spinning. STOP. This was hard. It’s estimated that most people have about 70,000 thoughts a day. Wow.
Change. Even positive change was hard. I had to go to work and not gossip or put myself on the low-level of some of my walking wounded co-workers. And it seemed to be the same in almost all workplaces. Always: the idiot boss who was promoted because of longevity and the threatened co-worker who wants you to fail because you make them look bad (probably didn’t take much). Lesson–if you’re a threat to someone, look for the bus because you’re going under it. The lazy, worthless, paycheck stealing co-workers who are threatened because you actually work. Concept. You are at work…to work. It was endless, but not hopeless. Same play, same characters, different faces and names. I wanted a new stage. Reality. I needed my job. Good attitude. I believed that what I thought about would become my life so I focused on that. Right again. Law of Attraction. Hhhhhhmmmmmm.
Patterns. In my life. Just like the play. Over and over while I was in the coma. STOP. It had to stop. So I cleaned house. My insides that is. Heart, soul, spirit, mind. Healing was a good. And the funny thing was that when I worked on myself as a person, I started cleaning my actual house. Change. Embraced it. My floor was clean. So was my refrigerator. The storeroom, not so much.
Divorce. I married someone I didn’t love. And lived the lie…just like the other people I had noticed when I took society apart like a clock. Commitment. I started by refusing to lie to myself. The scariest part of this haunted house was that I had lied to myself so much about my life that I had started to believe it. Horrifying. Ax murderer movie not as scary. I figured lying to the outside world would stop if I didn’t lie to myself. It did. I wasn’t a liar as in the type who says they did this or own that, etc. (I call this kind of lying one-upmanship). I lied by omission and by not saying what I meant. I was a people-pleaser (not anymore, so don’t ask me if you look fat in the pants you’re wearing). I quickly learned that it would have been easier to master quantum physics than myself, but I was determined. The coma wasn’t as appealing anymore. More hope. Cash register honesty just didn’t cut it.
Faux Friends. Had to go. Life was too short. Grow or go. Every parasite needed a host and I wasn’t going to host that party anymore. Meow hiss psst psst! I was called the “bad guy”. Unbelievable. How dare you stop enabling me? How dare you stop paying for everything? How dare you stop letting me dump my garbage on you. Lesson–if someone can dish it out but can’t take it, you’ve got a victim on your hands (and a bully). Run. Faster. Marathon. Train. Train harder.
The basement, your basement, the dungeon, your dungeon–your dark, dirty, little (or big, or huge) secrets are literally a ball and chain that keep you from reaching your potential, being bigger, thinking bigger, and having hopes and dreams. As humans, we really are as sick as our secrets. Fear. That’s all it is. They have to go. Shine the light on them. Spot light. Flood light. Laser. Full moon. Blood moon. Secrets are just like rats in the dark. They’ll squeal, but they’ll run. They’ll go. And then you will have created a space for possibility. Can you remember way back in the day when you actually had hopes and dreams? You have to try to remember. Let your secrets out so you can dust off your dreams…and your wings. You have nothing to lose but your self-created prison. Key point–you can’t save your face and your ass at the same time. It is fun to watch people try this and the entertainment is unlimited–it’s called society and it’s free. Be different. Just tell it. Tell it all. To a safe person. Magic will happen.
Hey, how’s it going?
I want to pass along some very important news that everyone needs to hear!
In December of 2017, Donald Trump made history by recognizing Jerusalem as the capital of Israel. Why is this big news? Because by this the Jewish people of Israel are now able to press forward in bringing about the Third Temple prophesied in the Bible.
Jewish Rabbis have publicly announced that their Messiah will be revealed in the coming years who will be a leader and spiritual guide to all nations, gathering all religions under the worship of one God.
Biblical prophecy tells us that this Jewish Messiah who will take the stage will be the antichrist “who opposes and exalts himself above all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sits as God in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God” (2 Thessalonians 2:4). For a time he will bring about a false peace, but “Therefore when you see the ‘abomination of desolation,’ spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing in the holy place (Matthew 24:15)…then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nor ever shall be” (Matthew 24:21).
More importantly, the power that runs the world wants to put a RFID microchip in our body making us total slaves to them. This chip matches perfectly with the Mark of the Beast in the Bible, more specifically in Revelation 13:16-18:
“He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.
Here is wisdom. Let him who has understanding calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man: His number is 666.”
Referring to the last days, this could only be speaking of a cashless society, which we have yet to see, but are heading towards. Otherwise, we could still buy or sell without the mark amongst others if physical money was still currency. This Mark couldn’t be spiritual because the word references two different physical locations. If it was spiritual it would just say in the forehead. RFID microchip implant technology will be the future of a one world cashless society containing digital currency. It will be implanted in the right-hand or the forehead, and we cannot buy or sell without it. Revelation 13:11-18 tells us that a false prophet will arise on the world scene doing miracles before men, deceiving them to receive this Mark. Do not be deceived! We must grow strong in Jesus. AT ALL COSTS, DO NOT TAKE IT!
“Then a third angel followed them, saying with a loud voice, “If anyone worships the beast and his image, and receives his mark on his forehead or on his hand, he himself shall also drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured out full strength into the cup of His indignation. He shall be tormented with fire and brimstone in the presence of the holy angels and in the presence of the Lamb. And the smoke of their torment ascends forever and ever; and they have no rest day or night, who worship the beast and his image, and whoever receives the mark of his name” (Revelation 14:9-11).
People have been saying the end is coming for many years, but we needed two key things. One, the Third Temple, and two, the technology for a cashless society to fulfill the prophecy of the Mark of the Beast.
Visit http://WWW.BIBLEFREEDOM.COM to see proof for these things and why the Bible truly is the word of God!
If you haven’t already, it is time to seek God with all your heart. Jesus loves you more than you could imagine. He wants to have a relationship with you and redeem you from your sins. Turn to Him and repent while there is still hope! This is forever…God bless!
“EITHER HUMAN INTELLIGENCE ULTIMATELY OWES ITS ORIGIN TO MINDLESS MATTER OR THERE IS A CREATOR…” – JOHN LENNOX
We all know God exists. Why? Because without Him, we couldn’t prove anything at all. Do we live our lives as if we cannot know anything? No. So why is God necessary? In order to know anything for certain, you would have to know everything, or have revelation from somebody who does. Who is capable of knowing everything? God. So to know anything, you would have to be God, or know God.
A worldview without God cannot account for the uniformity and intelligibility of nature. And why is it that we can even reason that God is the best explanation for this if there is no God? We are given reason to know or reject God, but never to know that He does not exist.
It has been calculated by Roger Penrose that the odds of the initial conditions for the big bang to produce the universe that we see to be a number so big, that we could put a zero on every particle in the universe, and even that would not be enough to use every zero. What are the odds that God created the universe? Odds are no such thing. Who of you would gamble your life on one coin flip?
Is there evidence that the Bible is the truth? Yes. Did you know that the creation accounts listed in the book of Genesis are not only all correct, but are also in the correct chronological order? That the Bible doesn’t say the Earth was formed in six 24-hour days but rather six long but finite periods of time? That the Bible makes 10 times more creation claims than all major “holy” books combined with no contradictions, while these other books have errors in them? The Bible stood alone by concurring with the big bang saying, “In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth” (Genesis 1:1); and says our universe is expanding, thousands of years before scientists discovered these things. Watch a potential life-changing video on the website listed below with Astronomer(PhD) Hugh Ross explaining all these facts based on published scientific data. He has authored many books, backed even by atheist scientists.
Jesus came to pay a debt that we could not; to be our legal justifier to reconcile us back to a Holy God; only if we are willing to receive Him: “For the wages of sin is death…” (Romans 6:23).
God so loved the world that He gave us His only begotten son, so that whoever believes in Him, through faith, shall not perish, but have everlasting life. Jesus says if we wish to enter into life to keep the commands! The two greatest commands are to love God with all your heart, soul, strength, and mind; and your neighbor as yourself. All the law hang on these commands. We must be born of and lead by the Holy Spirit, to be called children of God, to inherit the kingdom. If we are willing to humble ourselves in prayer to Jesus, to confess and forsake our sins, He is willing to give the Holy Spirit to those who keep asking of Him; giving us a new heart, leading us into all truth!
Jesus came to free us from the bondage of sin. The everlasting fire was prepared for the devil and his angels due to disobedience to God’s law. If we do the same, what makes us any different than the devil? Jesus says unless we repent, we shall perish. For sin is the transgression of the law. We must walk in the Spirit so we may not fulfill the lusts of the flesh, being hatred, fornication, drunkenness and the like. Whoever practices such things will not inherit the kingdom (Galatians 5:16-26). If we sin, we may come before Jesus to ask for forgiveness (1 John 2:1-2). Evil thoughts are not sins, but rather temptations. It is not until these thoughts conceive and give birth by our own desires that they become sin (James 1:12-15). When we sin, we become in the likeness of the devil’s image, for he who sins is of the devil (1 John 3:8); but if we obey Jesus, in the image of God. For without holiness, we shall not see the Lord (Hebrews 12:14).
The oldest religion in the world is holiness through faith (James 1:27). What religion did Adam and Eve follow before the fall? Jesus, Who became the last Adam, what religion does He follow? Is He not holy? He never told us to follow the rituals and traditions of man but to take up our cross and follow Him (Luke 9:23). There are many false doctrines being taught leading people astray. This is why we need the Holy Spirit for discernment. Unlike religion, holiness cannot be created. It is given to us from above by the baptism of the Spirit. Jesus is more than a religion; He is about having a personal relationship with the Father. Start by reading the Gospel of Matthew, to hear the words of God, to know His character and commandments. Follow and obey Jesus, for He is the way, the truth, and the life!
experienced. unfortunately know exactly what you are talking about. or maybe just enlightened through misfortune. but suffering is the key to enlightenment. I’d like to think I’ve arrived but just look at me. can’t even type. Just bummed lol1